Life

My life is busy as everyone else’s is busy but I think I put more on myself than I really should and never seem to find a way to slow down and say no or just do stuff for me. I think about it but yeah, that just never happens.

I over do it most of the time and need to occasionally take a day or two and step back and just relax and do absolutely NOTHING! The past two days that is exactly what I have done, for me!

I for the most part sew every single day. Well not always sewing but at least working with fabric in one way or another. I make my girls hair clips and head bands and dresses and pants and tops galore…their closets are stuffed! I also sew for others! So yes I am busy with that but I also have a family of four others to care for as well. I am super grateful for my dear husband who works his butt off to help keep our family steady and living comfortably. It isn’t like we haven’t had hard times, we have, like most couples and families but we always, always find a way though. Money may be tight at times but I always find ways to make it work..as best I can. But, my children and husband are happy..that makes me happy.

My son is now a man himself..almost 17 years old and just growing up way too fast in my eyes. I remember being a single mother and caring for him all on my own and the struggle that was but boy we sure made it though ok. I met my husband and my world grew by leaps and bounds with love. He loved me but his family also took us both in with open arms. Zachary and I were never left out of any family functions or just life in general from the start and I can’t thank my in-laws and the rest of the family enough for that. I love being a part of a large Italian family. The parties are fantastic! EVERY SINGLE ONE! The laughs, love and joy and even the grief are felt and held close to my heart from them all.

Recently we lost the matriarch to the family, my husbands dearest Grandmother Dorothy. She was always there with a smile on her face and a hug to share. The family surrounded her with the love that she shared through her life right back during her final days and I know she felt the love in the room with her. The sweetest woman I knew lost the battle but she left behind lots and lots of people who grew as children to adults and just as people by knowing her. I feel blessed to have been able to spend the past 12 years of my life knowing her and sharing in the joy of being a part of her family.

You will be greatly missed Dot. I told the kids that now she is in heaven with her long ago lost husband enjoying a beautiful picnic in a field full of flowers. That made them smile to know she was truly happy.

So there you have it..just a few of the billions of things running through my head this morning..well afternoon now since I had some computer issues to deal with while writing this. My brain never turns off…what to sew next, what to cook next, what needs to be cleaned or put away, what to do with the kids during vacation, what do I have to get done by a certain date..what this and that and truly it never ends. I write notes to myself at my desk and on my bedside table at night just to try to get the thoughts out and so I can move on!

Welcome to my crazy world!