Feelings..

Right now I am sad…very sad.  I have been sad for a long time but put on a good show and no one would be the wiser to think I wasn’t happy.  I have very few friends and they are usually busy with their own lives so I don’t get much time to just “hang with the girls” and just relax.  I spend 24/7 with my kids and I love them dearly but a mom does need some alone time, doesn’t she?  I don’t think my hubby gets me at all.  We don’t really talk.  IT is more I talk and he ignores.  It makes me very sad to see this.  I just don’t know what to do anymore.  Feeling alone all the time and not having anyone to really talk to is getting harder and harder for me.  I can’t turn my brain off and not just think and think about things all the time.  I hardly sleep.  Being sad isn’t a good thing for anyone..especially me.